Hell.

Its funny how much a person can go through. Its sooo strange to me how much limits can be pushed, how broken you can be.  Ive never been so torn in my life, and ive never felt this much pain. I really feel like im holding my own head underwater. Why do i do this to myself? I never realized  how dependent i am on a few words. Its sad to say that i still am. Is it im sometimes just too good of a person, and i forget whats really good for me? And thats where im so confused as what is good for me, and that i can and cant have. I feel like a million man march has walked on my back, and my spine is just crushed. It takes every little once of strength i have, and its only as a friend. When friends need help, you help them right? Maybe i just need a slap from someone to tell me she's not my friends. Or shouldnt be. I guess you really are a complete fool when you love.