Hell.

Its funny how much a person can go through. Its sooo strange to me how much limits can be pushed, how broken you can be.  Ive never been so torn in my life, and ive never felt this much pain. I really feel like im holding my own head underwater. Why do i do this to myself? I never realized  how dependent i am on a few words. Its sad to say that i still am. Is it im sometimes just too good of a person, and i forget whats really good for me? And thats where im so confused as what is good for me, and that i can and cant have. I feel like a million man march has walked on my back, and my spine is just crushed. It takes every little once of strength i have, and its only as a friend. When friends need help, you help them right? Maybe i just need a slap from someone to tell me she's not my friends. Or shouldnt be. I guess you really are a complete fool when you love.

Jenny's cute

How cute is this? 

Just thought id share<3

That aint' Al Borland

Im sleeping alone tonight,

And I know you're not.

The cold isn't the hardest thing to fight.

And i prey to god that bottle 

Is the only thing your lips will touch.

This blanket is big enough for two,

But the only person ill be holding tonight is myself.

All i really want here is you...

Im so sick of sleeping,

And these dreams that are cracked.

Im so sick of thinking,

Of times i thought would last.

I knew i was wrong

when i wrote down these words.

But these feelings are now,

and will be gone when i wake up.

And then there was an explosion...

A thought,

A heart,

Alone...

A breakup,

A few months

Days

Seconds...

A call

A friend

A lover

A secret

A car ride

A sleepless night

A dawn with tired eyes...

And then there was an explosion.

A date

A morning

A film 

A kiss

A heart

Another

A hand 

A place in mine.

A four letter word...

M.H.A.C.A.S.S.T

Her body is a book, and each page I can't wait to read.

Eyes like windows that show me worlds i've never seen.

My hearts a clock and she stops time...

Monday

I bent rhythm.

The planets aligned.

I calmed the ocean, it let the moon unwind.