Simplicity

So the other day i was outside just mingling around my apartment complex smoking a cigarette and i stopped to sit down at some lawn chairs by the pool. I herd the click clack of the cracks on the sidewalk, with a little hint of childs laughter in the distance. As the commotion approached, it was a young boy and girl around the age of nine riding scooter's around. They stopped right in front of me and the boy yells to the girl "watch ill show you something really fun".  They toss there scooters and are playing "jungle man" in some ice plant and bird of paradise and i really missed the innocence of being a child. Not knowing, and not caring when insurance was due. What part of my car was going to fuck up next. Wondering when id have my first real heartbreak. I really missed childhood for a moment. But i relized its just growing up, and i wouldnt have it another way. It just really made me think about how much i have came in my life until where i am now. Only a few more years and im going to be completely grown up. I wont be 18 anymore. I know im still really young, but life really does get thrown at you fast. Sometimes i wish i could go back too the best summer of my life, where all that mattered was my best friends waking me up every morning for yet another amazing fun day of band practice, Circle K mishes, and the only thing i have to worry about was what i was going to order at carrows that night. Sometimes i wish the stars still shined as bright as they did, and All time low werent such sell out's. Those were some of the best days of my life and I wouldnt trade it for anything in the world. I really do have the best friends anyone can ask for and it was amazing having everyone back. I can hardly wait for spring break and summer when everyones back from college. For a while i really felt like everyone was gone, but this winter break was a great reminder of what i do have away from home.  I missed you guys<3 

Winter

The world can turn,

And the sun will still burn.

All the oceans can freeze,

and the snow can wither our bones,

Down to our knees.

But its okay.

We can layer up,

and bundle up till the chill rolls off our teeth.

I guess my ship is still sinking,

and my flags still at half mass. 

But i'm  still counting down the seconds,

until i can forgive this past.